Welcome back, they said
As I was born
Eyes refusing to open
Mouth protesting existence
-Another life time to live?
Another lesson to learn?
I have lived too many lives to count
Yet I am still being reborn
For a lesson I refused to learn
Welcome back, they said
As I was born
Eyes refusing to open
Mouth protesting existence
-Another life time to live?
Another lesson to learn?
I have lived too many lives to count
Yet I am still being reborn
For a lesson I refused to learn
I remember when I was maybe eleven
I had to wake up as early as seven, rush to the neighborhood baker
He made our street smell like heaven
The fresh bread gives me warmth on my morning walk
And a lady sitting in the street
selling something to eat
Breakfast routine that I love to remember
Memories of early December
You scream out and they forget why
You awake and start to cry
-Oh this earth, I longed to view
Oh this earth, has room for but a few
And I was chosen
And after the choice
I was frozen
For hearing my new voice
So let me scream a moment or two
For soon I’ll forget what I came to do
.
.
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Do you remember your purpose?
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You don’t remember falling
But you must’ve fallen… reasons why you were born crying
You forget what you’ve forgotten
You think they’ll think you’re insane
When you deny your new name
So you shut out what you remember
A haze of a spirit entering a body
Energizing this entity
Your secret is safe
Even you can no longer tell
The truth from the myth
He knew what was wrong but could not be corrected
He looked at the mirror and hated what it reflected
Images no longer compelling
A stranger in the same old setting
He wanted to die just to start again
Then he slept and woke up a different man
Glasses with no prescription
Changed his perception
His eyes fooled him you see
They kept him from being free
All he needed were colored glasses made by his daughter
Saying happy new year to the best father
The child within smiles at the toys I see
The child within is happy to be me
Fascinated by the street lights and the sounds of the sirens that she’s only heard on TV
She wished this for me
The child within got me as far as she could
And now she smiles
Watches my life unfold as it should
Hot showers and candles used purely for the scent
Beds raised from the ground that don’t smell like cigarettes
Dish washers oh how beautiful it is
To hide your mess especially those dishes!
Traffic lights and construction zones
Things you might hate unless you’ve lived without
I forget to be thankful each and every day
But sometimes when I’m alone I scream and say
THANK YOU
Before I complain
That my WiFi connection has gone insane
There was a shift in consciousness
A change in view
The monster was a man
Holding a gun at you
You were the duck that landed
Trusting when you should’ve flew
Now you are back to your body
Not knowing what to do
Maybe I am the monster and the victim
Or just consciousness floating between bodies
Trying to find an answer
Of why
Must we to kill to eat and live to die?
It’s not an easy fix
Not to be me
It’s not a simple change
From what you can see
For I have only been “me” and I don’t know what else to be
So if my smile offends you
or
My body disgust you
Then there’s nothing I can say
For I am ME
And this way I’ll stay
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I was determined that it was O.K. that the government was making a big deal out of nothing. Like the tornado sirens that were never followed by a tornado, flood warnings, and ‘terrorist attacks’ that never manifested. I had a test the next week. It was finals week. I went to the corner store and bought as much dry food as I could fit in my dorm room. My room had the prefect set up, a microwave sitting on top of a yellowish mini-fridge. The brown counter top was bursting with ramen noodle packages and the fridge was stuffed with energy drinks and vitamin water. I felt prepared for the next few final weeks. I studied most of my days and avoided classmates as much as I could. That day, I decided to take a nap at three in the afternoon. As I laid on my mattress that lacked sheets I noticed the tears on its light-blue box spring. Then I noticed that the clouds seem to find a permanent home here, lingering above campus. I thought; haven’t heard the cheerful bird songs in days. Come to think of it… I haven’t heard much lately. The parties that never stopped across the hall seem to have ended—finally!
I changed my voice mail message to “I’ll talk to you when finals are over.” I must have a had hundreds of messages by now. 70% of them were from my boyfriend JAMES. We had been together (on and off) as-long-as I could remember. We’d met when we were 15 years old, and well, we’ve been together ever since. He’s not into change and I’m not into confrontation so we went to different schools. He stayed in Michigan and I moved down to Florida, it’s nicer here. I would have a tan on those skinny pale bones if I didn’t have so much studying to do. The goal is to get into the medical school down here. James wanted to be a wildlife biologist, somewhere up north was his plan. We were two busy individuals, so it’s a perfect situation. When someone asked me if I was single, I don’t have to lie and say that I’m not! James called me a lot, but my parents usually understood that I needed to study. This time they had left 55 messages on my phone. I didn’t get why they keep calling me. “IT’S FINALS WEEK PEOPLE.” I thought.
Now it’s been a few days of quietness. “It’s too quiet here. It’s like everybody has left. The reconstruction on this third floor has stopped for no good reason. Maybe I should go to the store and watch the news or something, a break from microbiology is not such a bad thing.” I thought to myself.
I decided finally open my dorm room door. As the door creaked open, a loud howl came from down the hall and a white animal rushed toward my door. I closed the door fast and ran toward the fire exit through my window. I rushed down the stairs thinking that the large dog-ish creature was following me. I stumbled and ran into a person—a guy on the fire escape. We didn’t talk or pause we just ran down the stairs, seemed like we were running for similar reasons. After going down the three floors we realized that nothing is following us.
I thought we needed to get out of this place then I asked: “Do you have a car?”
He said: “yeah! I don’t have much gas though I’ve been driving for few days to come here and see my girlfriend. She hasn’t answered my calls. You think she would after the horrifying news.”
“What news?” I asked confused.
“The…the ‘outbreak of the creatures’ the white hounds.” He replied with a sarcastic voice.
“So I wasn’t imagining? The… the…”
“It looks like they’ve evacuated the campus, didn’t you notice?” He asked.
“Well I have a bathroom and a microwave in my dorm room. It’s still being renovated, my floor that is, so no one wanted to live up here but me and those partiers across the hall. We get to do whatever we want since we are more isolated from the other floors of the building.”
He scratched the back of his head and nodded then said while looking distracted: “Well, I’m ahhh… call me ‘T’.” After a brief pause he continued: “So let’s find a car with good mileage per gallon and lots of gas, shall we?” I nodded. We walked around the campus’s parking lot till we found a hybrid car with over half a tank of gas. He said: “Well these are hard to hot-wire.” I looked under the car and found a spare key under a hidden spot.
I smiled saying: “My boyfriend has this model, he’s always said that it’s stupid to leave your keys there because it’s a known ‘secret spot’ in these models for keys”.
“Well I’m glad this person didn’t think so.” Said Tee. We got in the car and as Tee started driving we wondered about our destination. Where will we go? We weren’t sure. As far as this car can take us, that seemed to be the plan for now.